Saturday, 02 May 2009

• Life, God and other contemplative musings...

  Life.  No not the board game, I'm talking about real life, the one you are experiencing right now. 

   

  Life is like a jigsaw puzzle.  You work hard putting it together but then you lose some pieces and have to go searching for them, or you find that somebody broke it all apart and put it away while you were away.  Even worse you knock it off the table and all the pieces go flying everywhere.  Any semblance of order is lost. 

   

  Life is something that we all try to figure out but most of us can't quite get it.  Some of us think we have it and usually it comes crashing down around us soon after we think the words "I've got it going", or at least that's what I have found with my own experience.  Right when I think I am on top of everything God throws a piece of gravel, a rock or even worse a monkey wrench into my life.  Maybe that is what he wants.  Us to constantly be out of control so we are forced to trust him.  Find our happiness in him because we trust him with our problems and we give him all our worries.  He seems to be able to handle all them just fine.  I've haven't seen him have a mental breakdown yet.

   

  I find this illustrated very well in Eleventyseven's song Love In Your Arms.

  I've been looking for anything
  To point me in the right direction
  Time is running out
  And I still haven't figured out
  Quite how I'm gonna reach perfection

  To me, I feel like in life I can almost taste the next step.  My fingers are inching out to touch it, but I'm not quite sure which direction I should be reaching in.  My life doesn't suck, but I'm seeing what is coming up ahead and I want it, I'm craving it, I can't wait for it.  I'm getting more and more impatient as the days go by.  Not to help matters, all I can see that I can do for now is do what needs to be done now and trust in God to get me to the next step.
  
  

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  Trusting God is actually a difficult concept for me to grasp right now.  I can believe in him and everything but I don't get the whole relationship with him.  I can't touch him, feel him, or hear him.  He's not *real* to me.  I'm still searching on how exactly you build a relationship with somebody that's not just there.  I can see Xangans on my computer, and I can hear and touch my friends but God is a foreign concept to me right now.  What do I need to be doing to improve this situation?  Right now I am doing nothing so almost anything I do will be an improvement. 

  The rest of Eleventyseven's song goes on to say that he realized God's love was there the whole time right in front of him.  It's right there in front of me but I can't quite grasp it.

  Currently: Galactic Conquest

  - Love In Your Arms

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